i dunno
i just wanna write all i feel today,, i don't know why today feels so empty there a big space in my mind in my heart but i can't hear anyone say something >_< so pathetic i don't feel fit or feel complete coz i'm not,, i don't know how to clean all this space or fill this space maybe many people would say with love,, but i don't think so,, i can't feel that feeling,, i'm not in love with anyone right now,,, but i have my love here,, in my mind deep inside it,, i know it's so useless when nobody know what i feel,, but that's just because i don't let them know about my feeling,, maybe out there i can be some one who always happy, and smile a long day,, and just a little bit ignorant but it's just because i wanna people see me like that,, they don't know anything about me,, i always keep a secret in my mind,, many thing that i don't want to share with other i'll just keep it.. maybe from the out side you'll see me as a such a funny girl,, or something but i do that just because i want you like me,, i always do such fool things to make people comfort around me,, but that is wrong,, i can take a longer time sit around popular people,, that is make me sick ==" i know i'm not popular but i can be popular if i want to,, many people know me,, i just can be what they want,, but that isn't me so i don't do that,,, i don't wanna be such a hypocrite people that always do the opposite of their heart that's wasn't me >_<
i always talk to my self to share all problem and solve it,, just me and my mind,, there is no the other!!
i do have family, but i can feel the family,, we are only 3 now, without my father and we just spend our time with our activity,, mine, her, and his activity,, we are rarely talk each other to tell our story,, i don't know maybe only me feel that thing,, the only one thing that i wanna do is make my only one parent feel proud of me and my brother ^_^
it's so pathetic when i said i haven't in love with anyone,, but the truth is i have once,, yea only once the real love,, but unfortunately he doesn't love me,, even he doesn't know anything about my feeling,, poor me >,<
sankyuuu for take all rubbish that i trough here,,, i hope i'll find someone whose gonna accompany me and make me happy all of my life,, the right thing comes on the right way at the right time!!!
i always talk to my self to share all problem and solve it,, just me and my mind,, there is no the other!!
i do have family, but i can feel the family,, we are only 3 now, without my father and we just spend our time with our activity,, mine, her, and his activity,, we are rarely talk each other to tell our story,, i don't know maybe only me feel that thing,, the only one thing that i wanna do is make my only one parent feel proud of me and my brother ^_^
it's so pathetic when i said i haven't in love with anyone,, but the truth is i have once,, yea only once the real love,, but unfortunately he doesn't love me,, even he doesn't know anything about my feeling,, poor me >,<
sankyuuu for take all rubbish that i trough here,,, i hope i'll find someone whose gonna accompany me and make me happy all of my life,, the right thing comes on the right way at the right time!!!
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