Let say, "what if"

well, view days ago i read article about someone who is fall for her gay best friend, i think she is lucky to having a great partner of her live is her own bestfriend, and since that day i start to think, what if i have a gay friend and i'm in love with him?? could i be like her?? just get his heart or being a stupid girl who is fall for someone that never do the same, all about love is absolutely abstract man!!! you have to know how that feel when you are fall for someone to know what is L O V E and i'm not a lover, rarely have special feeling for anyone else, and almost everyday make jokes, including about love, and when i say i'm in love that's mean "i like you for a month" and "you are boring in the rest of time" after that, hard to believe that i want to fall in love, even i want to, i can't do that for now, you know why? because i never respect anyone's special feeling, because i never give any attention, or maybe no one put attention on me, hhaha oh please i'm that bad right?! hhahha it's fun have a lot of friend around the world and make them happy, anyway i like to give compliment to them, make them happy, in any way. on ething that i learn from internet is NEVER TRY TO REACH SOMEONE TO LOVE BY IT that could be a dissaster man!! hhaha because, it's hard to make a fine condition everyday, to control our mood, and it's better to find bestfriend by it, trust me! when you keep your mind away from looking for lover instead of friend that would make it sooooo easy to make a friend, without any freak thing, #ifyouknowhatimean i met a lot of good people, that share their problem, solve my problem, and help me with essay, that's make a lot of fun :D but i've lose many friend too, when they become sooo busy with their new job, or maybe get more popularity makes them busy all the time, and just read my message wothout answer, oh my God!!!!! i want the old you my friend -_-.
what if, i get more friend and forget my old friend? well it's gonna be so meant and i'm gonna kicked by them for sure, ever feel so dumb because have a brilliant friend?? i feel that way now, and trust me it worst!!!! make a friend and having fun without thinking about money is easy, but when you have to pay the bill of restaurant you just realize "wow everything got it's own price" and happiness is the most expensive :), be grateful and may Alloh bless us!! thanks for every single day that full of happyness, sadness, madness, bless, and love I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALLOH :)

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